30 January 2012

jump start

jeez, nearly three weeks on, and still no new post...
not that there isn't anything happening here, but i suppose it's been mainly very personal stuff, things i don't feel a need to write down on this blog (where as i've been having an emotional pour out on my dutch one...)

Januari has been an eye opener, in many ways.
for one - i've figured out that i'm finding it very hard to let go of something special to me... I feel i'm clutching at straws, but there's nothing much to go on anymore... and i'm stubbornly denying this... Scared of the results, of the reaction... Maybe i'm even scared that something nice might happen... Maybe i deep down don't feel i deserve it... Maybe...

Maybe i should just jump, and see where the stream of life will take me...
Maybe, soon...

the beatles
daring to jump

10 January 2012

10 things for 2012

{this wasn't going to be a direct translation of my dutch blog, but if we don't tell enybody...}

ten things, for this year...
maybe by having it in writing i might get on and do some of them!

1. have my purpose in life figured out
2. knowing how my intuition sounds (as opposed to the one talking jibberish) and allowing myself to follow it
3. having seen a band (or two, or more) play live...
4. go to England {i feel so incredibly homesick it {almost} hurts...}
5. finish reading a novel...
6. make a big felt bag, in lots of garish colours... having my firend Mo as an inspiring, enthusiastic partner should help... as will her new studio!!
7. stop holding a grudge towards certain people...
8. do at least one thing on my {very secret} list of all-things-i-don't-dare-or-should... and see if the world will fall apart...
9. put away the christmas tree...
10. accept that i will probably never feel as happy as i was in 1991/1992 (or maybe i will - visualise!!! - who knows...)


9 January 2012

sandman

oh well,  just as i feared: the enthusiastic start hasn't been sustained...
{woman, know thyself...}
but, now that the kids are all back at school, and a new week lies there,  stretched out before me, an attempt to get going with 2012 properly...

this little clip i found on facebook, where my friend P posted it.
incredibly beautiful, and very inpiring...



1 January 2012

welcome 2012

make 2012 the special year 
- for yourself -
that it has been told it will be!!!
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this link is a nice one to get going...